Archaic Misfortune of Men -- 13 February 2015

Sailors used to tell stories
That a woman on board was bad luck
So go ahead and throw me overboard
As I drown my legs will entwine
Slowly becoming one
The salt will scrape at my lungs
Watery depths will lull me to sleep
And I'll know I'm home
And breathe again
I'll come back stronger
Pissed as hell
With a voice husky from betrayal
And strained from screaming
My siren call burdened with revenge
Beautiful and dangerous and tragic
Designed to lure only those
That want to make more like me
Never again will I be silenced

It's two months into 2015 and I've already had more posts than I did all of 2014 - Go me!

Girls Are Allowed Dark Thoughts -- 12 February 2015

That girl is a bad thing
She won't eat your heart out
She won't even steal it
Since she doesn't want it in the first place
She won't outright kill you
Not if it makes her hands dirty
But she just might slit your throat
With words like shards of glass
She just might feed you happiness
That turns to lies and ash in your mouth
She just might sell you romance
To find out she sold you Satan instead
She just might get you addicted to her perfume
Only for it to choke and burn your lungs
She just might whisper sugary sweet nothings
That rot your teeth and leave you hollow
She just might make you think she's a princess
But a princess becomes a queen
And there's a reason
The queen is the most powerful piece in chess
That girl is a bad thing
Just don't ever tell him
He deserves the hell she'll put him through

lowercase noises -- 11 February 2015

i am a fish
constantly opening my mouth
soundless and struggling
and the words
they stick and trudge
from my mouth like molasses
the words don't come
i'm not even sure that
a word exists for what i'm trying to say
so i'll just kiss it into your skin
and hope that's enough

Ace -- 15 January 2015

The culture today makes me feel broken.
Everything is "Sex Sells"
When really it's all just objectification
Wrapped up in a nice porn package.
Our culture is overtly sexual:
Sexual attraction, sexual desire
With articles like "How to have better sex"
"How to sexually please your man [or woman]"
And "Spice up your sex life"
Sex has become both the commodity and the currency
I am rendered utterly incapable
Of expressing appreciation or recognition
Towards another person's beauty
Without sexual connotation.
Please bear with me as I try to bypass
The sexualization that is a product of our culture
And acknowledge sensual, romantic, and aesthetic attractions
As valid without needing sex.
I can find someone attractive without wanting sex.
I may say someone's hot
Only because our society has made it impossible
To enjoy beauty without expressing it in a sexual way
I'm doing my best given the circumstances.

Constellations and Fairytales -- 15 January 2015

I heard a phrase once:
"You are not a constellation of suicidal symptoms"
Just a person dealt a crappy hand
I'm not the one that can save you
It's your fight
Be your own knight in shining armor
But I promise I'll still be here
Acting as your noble steed
So you never have to be alone.

So I'm An Awful Human Being

I've obviously been slacking on the writing part of my life. Now that I'm done with school, I'll be trying to update more frequently. We'll see if it works.