Jack Kerouac - 25 July 2013

I love the inspiration of the Beats

The free-spirited, pick-up-and-go idea

That is more a representation of longstanding notions

Of manhood in America,

Because men seem to be able to do whatever they want

I want what they had, I want to be them

And yet, I will never be Jack Kerouac

If for the only reason that I am a woman

I can’t hitch a ride

Without the expectation of a sexual favor

(Or worse)

Finding yourself in roadside diners and highways

And staying with strangers

Is too dangerous and improper

I know, I've tried

“Who knows what could have happened to you?”

“He could have raped you!”

“You could have died!”

But nothing happened and I'm okay

Yet people still berate me for it

Why was no one yelling at Jack?

All This Heartbreak - 9 July 2013

When you’re young

You’re supposed to feel invincible –

Not insignificant.

Yet, I feel so worthless

Just me and my insignificant dreams

I've heard it’s been said that dreams only die

When you stop chasing them

But what happens when you never actually start?

All because others make you doubt

Because they’ve been broken by their own lost dreams

Or are vindictive

They don’t care if they asphyxiate your dreams

And make it all seem so trivial

What a terrible thing to learn so young –

All this heartbreak and insecurity

Untitled For Now - 1 July 2013

Before you go and fall in love

Fall in love with my faults

I’m selfish

I’m a show-off

And I overcompensate for perceived flaws

But just this once

I want my happiness to not be seen as selfishness

My love to not be shown off ostentatiously

Or my laughter to not be seen as overcompensation

Because when I fall in love

I want you to see happiness, love and laughter

Where I see my fatal flaws